Yesterday's fight with my mum was pretty peaceful, in terms of shouting at each other. But it was harsh, i've hurt her, Elaine've hurt her. Even though i'm the one who started everything, i can feel her pain. I dont do apologies, but i apologised last night. Sometimes i just cant help it that my heart speak faster than my mind. Maybe i can, but i didnt try hard enough.

Promos are over, yet i dont feel alive. My wound from the stupid fall is hurting, my head's spinning, my stomach is grumbling, my body clock woke me up when i wanted to sleep in, the whole of the morning. Last night's bbq was good. I didnt say it was great because half the time i was feeling darn sick for god knows what reason, but heart to heart talk is the best. CANT WAIT FOR SLEEPOVERRR WITH THE GIRLS. I shall kop photos from facebook soon<: Soon Chuen said if you receive any call within this 2 weeks would mean you didnt make it through. Lets just hope that everyone can get through this stupid shit. Actually i should worry for myself more, i'm a little more than a bit scared, uh make that alot.

Jaa ne, i'm off to find food.